Mi vida es sólo para ti. Mi corazón es siempre suya

I am listening to Rockwell; Knife repeatedly. Sigh.

I tried and tried hiding up the pain I feel inside....pretending to fool folks around me that I am ok which I am not; at all. Yo no sé por qué hasta ahora todavía no puedo dejarlo ir. Tampoco dejé que mi corazón abierto para ser compartida. Todo intento de distinguir pondré sobre ti.

You know I won't hold you back now...our love just can't be found. Praise to God that the love will remains 'there' till the end even if we're apart no matter how far. It is not the matter of distance coz the thoughts that always count.

It hurts and pain when I have to live forever reminiscing all the sweet memoirs whilst knowing and feeling it fades away day by day. Notwithstanding, I will keep reminiscing and bear the pain coz I believe that love is not blind. Love sees but doesn't mind.

Say that I am a fool. And I don't care being fool because of love. Because I always love you.


p/s: KisahCintaKlasik | Tiada Dia menjadikan manusia sia-sia selain memujiNya.

Indesribable...contradiction feelings

My head tells me to give up but my heart keeps pounding and beating presto.


Wits end. Endurance? Decelerate....sigh.



p/s: KisahCintaKlasik | I'm sick!!! Sick of torn apart.

Am back...

Last few days I was thinking to write my journal. But then, I was trying to find words to what should I write. Hmmm (thinking) eyes rolling.

Summarily, I had 2 hectic days at North Port, Klang. Was there since afternoon waiting for cars clearance from customs. End up I was there till midnight ensuring all cars safely loaded onto trailers and delivered to the destination. Pheewwww...!!!!

However, Wednesday was tougher. It starts like the day before but end a 'lil' bit later at 5 a.m. Where I and my boss have to run over to our trailer driver at 3 a.m at Shah Alam due to fuel problem. The driver should load 8 units of Proton's new car to be delivered to Johor Bahru...but unfortunate that 2 of the cars' fuel is empty. To go or not to go....we were discussing. But if don't go, who will then?

I don't know why I post this story this time. Maybe, I just want to just find a lil time to recuperate but I don't know when. Just came back from Klang actually. I am finding time to chill for myself. Its been too long I haven't read nor pamper myself whilst lay still like broccoli in front of TV. Notwithstanding, I keep thinking and my mind keep refreshing of what is the next trip, load, how many cars, where is the delivery avenue etc. So tell me when I will have the time?


Perhaps, I could spend a weekend with kids next week....again, perhaps. Abang & baby; Imisualready.


p/s: KisahCintaKlasik | ...tell me if my escapism means would help?

......

Aku tak tau apa yang aku sedang rasa time ni. Kejap rasa ok kejap tak ok; yang mana satu pun aku tak tau...

Sejak akhir-akhir ini, sebenarnya aku banyak terasa rindu. Bila dikenangkan, tak tertanggung rasanya rinduku ini. Apakan daya ku, aku sering ketiadaan waktu. Walaupun itu hanya alasan, aku tau aku tak patut cakap macam tu. Tapi aku nak cakap jugak sebab aku tak tau nak bagi alasan apa lagi.

Bila rindu itu datang, berat dada aku rasakan. Semakin perlahan jantungku berdegup. Aku juga bertanya-tanya, adakah hanya aku yang merasa begini atau kita sama-sama merasa? Atau mungkin hanya aku yang masih menaruh harapan.....

imisualready!

Kadang-kadang aku marah diri aku sendiri. Kenapa perlu aku ikutkan perasaan hati aku ni. Tapi, apa salahnya kalau aku mahu terus menyimpan perasaan dan merasakan rindu aku ini? Ah....persetan dengan semua kata-kata liar dan tohmahan. Peduli apa aku. Korang cakap la apa pun...ada aku kisah?

Secara luarannya, memang tidak ada yang perasan bahwa aku sedang rindu. Tapi hanya AKU yang tahu betapa dalamnya rindu aku ni....betapa rapuhnya hatiku ini....betapa aku sedang terseksa. Aku tahu aku tak boleh nak salahkan sesiapa....kerana ini adalah pilihan jalanku. Tapi aku tahu....bahawa dia juga sedang merindukan aku.

iloveyoustill!

Aku akan kembali. Pulang membawa kemenangan (dialog Tiga Abdul).




Tunggu aku.

I Wish You Were Here

Birds chirping and wind blows
Soothing and peaceful
The gift from history
So you can breath

Its not dream but reality
Wash away sad but joy
Breath in deeply eyes close
So you know its God's gift

So be calm and cherished
For a lost friend has return
For the adore avail
Such a wonderful gift


p/s: KisahCintaKlasik | I need you like I've never needed anyone beHOLD...

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